A Pastor is Not a Therapist

I have all sorts of issues. I have problems that I need help working through. Life gets confusing for me, anxiety and depression dog my days, and I have some self-worth issues that I can’t overcome on my own. I need help navigating towards healing and wholeness, towards an integrated, healthy life. I’m a mess […]

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I Don’t Want to Take My Medicine

Sometimes, I don’t want to take my medicine. Day in and day out, I take my pills. Five pills in the morning and one at night to help me manage my bipolar and anxiety disorders. It’s a routine I have had for years. The medications have changed, developed, and settled into their current concoction, but […]

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What’s it like to live with bipolar?

Today I am speaking at an event called Shattering Stigma. It’s a collection of personal stories about people living with mental illness. Below is the core of my brief talk. /// Everyone wants to know what bipolar feels like. It’s hard to put into words because there are two different experiences. I’ll do my best […]

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This Madness Does Not Burn Bright

Somewhere, somehow, we all learned that a creative with a mental illness has a sort of a divine gift, a madness that fuels the creativity in ways that the average man could never achieve. We learned that madness equals creative spark, that depression equals the downside to the artistic peaks, and that the more an […]

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Afraid to Heal

I take my medication every day. Three pills in the morning and one a night. They are supposed to keep me more stable and balanced. They are supposed to help me fight the monsters of depression and the energy of the mania. I have the dosages adjusted by my psychiatrist. I see my therapist most […]

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