Shame and Antipsychotics

Antipsychotic. I am starting on an antipsychotic to help treat my bipolar. There is a hole in my brain that I am trying to heal. It’s a hole serotonin, dopamine, and epinephrine should fill, but I guess my head just doesn’t want to produce enough to make a difference. I have too many highs and […]

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When It’s Not Enough

It’s was a hard Monday. The crazy thing about having a mood disorder is that sometimes your mood swings out of nowhere. Some days you wake up, and the weight, suffocation, pain, and exhaustion of depression is already on you like a wet blanket at the bottom of a swimming pool. There is no reason […]

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Back on drugs

Just about four years ago I wrote “Sin and Effexor: what drugs do to my sanctification“. I was diagnosed with bipolar II right around this time. since writing that post, I have been on and off medication (mostly off… hooray for expensive medication and no insurance). I am about to start taking medication again, and I am finding […]

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