Why do I blog: a list

KeysI am having a hard time remembering why I blog. My voice feels so… empty isn’t the right word, but it’s close. It’s not even that I’m wondering why I write. I write because I like writing. I like ideas, and I think words, stories, and ideas matter to humans when other humans speak/write them. I’m feeling meaningless in my voice. I write about mostly theological stuff. I write about my own fears and failings and how they relate to my believing Jesus. But why do I write about it? The last thing I want to be is another stream of Jesus information and/or Christian self-help fluffy statements that sound cool but mean dick. So why do I blog, why do I think my voice matters about theology and spirituality? Here is a list:

I am angry. I’m pissed off that the church has become something that hurts so many. I’m pissed that the church has “theology” that amounts to superstition and folk legend. I’m angry that after growing up in church circles I still had a weak/distorted understanding about what the Bible says is the good news for humanity. I’m pissed that we spend so much time and energy talking about being a leader, dreaming big for God, becoming a better person, doing social good, but almost zero time talking about Jesus. Do you wonder why Christians are painted by the media as close minded, backward thinking, self righteous assholes? It’s because we ourselves don’t get the gospel. We aren’t willing to wrestle with the implications of a God who loves us so much he himself sacrificed his own life so that we could be forgiven of the way we hurt others, the world, and ourselves… a God who loves us so much he reconciled us to himself by getting up from the dead and offering us real, everlasting life… a God who loves us so much he is actively putting right all the wrong our brokenness has caused, and transforming us into the kind of human beings who can and do his kind of work. I am angry that we have traded this rich hope for a pop-theology of self help, egocentric, money hungry, bullshit.

to the sunshine: we salute you

I believe there is a better way. Things may be bad (over all), but it doesn’t mean things have to stay this way. I want to be part of the change. All that stuff that I’m pissed off about, I want to see it reformed, refined, and redeemed. I don’t want my son to hit his mid 20’s and feel lied to and betrayed by the church he grew up around. I want him to ask questions, find truth, and be a part of a Jesus community that is imperfect but striving to believe and be human. I want to give the next generation a better starting point. I want to pass a good faith on to them… and taste it my self. I don’t know what the better way completely looks like, so I process with these posts. I think that good conversation, good ideas, a good vocabulary and words can go a long way in helping us imagine what a better way can look like in our every day lives. I think that the best way we can pass on a better foundation to other people is to ask better questions now. Help our thoughts and feelings about faith have a better frame-work in which to grow.

I hope. I hope that my words will ring true with other people who feel as I do. I hope other people might find a good challenge to the status quo of church culture. I hope people might get shaken up, rethink and re-see our faith, re-see Jesus. I hope I can make more sense out of the feelings and thought I have. I hope I can find my “tribe” and maybe find a bit more home in the body of Christ. I hope Jesus can use my words in his mission of the redemption and transformation of human beings. I hope I can begin to believe Jesus better. I hope I can contribute to art, beauty, good words, good thoughts, and good times. I hope my voice matters because I feel the need to write about this stuff, to speak out and share what I see, think, and feel.

Days like today I may doubt my self, question why I blog, question if my voice matters. Days like today come and go. Either way, I need to remember: I have reasons for writing, for trying to say what I try to say. Even if I’m just writing for my self, I have reasons that  matter.

 

What about you? Why do you blog? Why does your voice matter?

  • If it means anything, you’re the reason I even started to really know and understand Jesus and who He is. Not just as a person but as I hope to one day see in myself – in all of us. You have evoked a change in me – an uncomfortable and unfamiliar change but change nonetheless. 

    Posts like these keep me on my toes and more people could be kept on theirs too if you keep writing, blogging, and using your voice. More people would learn to follow Christ the right way and not tread solely on what society has managed to trash and scatter who and what Jesus stands for.

    I promise if you keep writing, more people will catch on.

    Be the change.

  • Keep writing, Aaron. Keep writing.

    • Bill, as someone who I respect way more than you probably deserve, thank you brother. 

      • That made me smile. And I’m just another beggar sharing bread with the rest of the beggars – no better, and on occasion, worse. 

  • Great post.

    I blog because I want to read the Bible. I want to know the story. Like you, when I have kids, I want to be able to tell them the true story they are living. That’s all. And anyone who wants to join in is welcome to come along.

    • I love what you are doing on your blog man. Seriously. It’s focused, fun, and is interacting with the story. 

  • I know it may seem pointless at times, but don’t stop writing. There is a growing trend of Christians who are tired of the fake Christianity found in many churches and are striving for something real. You are a voice to that growing area of our faith. 

    At the same time, don’t allow your anger at what has happened in the past shape how you foresee the future of our faith. The danger is to swing the pendulum to the opposite extreme and throw the good out with the bad. Allow God to shape your view of what the church should be, not your reaction to what you see now.

    • Dude, how do you know how to encourage me at the right time. Seriously. Thanks.

      It would be easy to let my anger shape things… and I did that for my late teens/early 20’s. I thought that I would get less pissed off with some age, but I haven’t. A couple of years under my belt has tempered my reactions though. I do want to keep the good and cut out the cancer. May God continue to temper our reactions to our failings.

  • Graham

    I would add that I blog because thinking in community is helpful.

    • Great point man. If left to thinking in isolation, I’m gonna end up wacked out, pissed off, and absent from the rest of the gifts of the body. Thinking in community is healthy.

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